Resentment....

I have lived the majority of my life resenting the people who have hurt me. It's time to let go of the pain and criticism that I live with day in and day out! It all started when I was just a wee little tot. Just like any other kid in the neighborhood,life appeared to be great. I went to school played with the kids (which at that time i thought were my friends) the same thing everyday,life was so easy than. The years passed and before I knew it I was a teenager. This is the part of life where it gets rough for most people. Growing up and changing inside and out is kind of confusing. Well i don't really remember that part of my life, for the fact that i was dealing with something bigger in my life. I had to grow up fast take charge of the things that were going on in my life. As all the other teenagers were living a carefree life. I had to worrie about my mother. If she was going to make it through the day without hurting herself, or if I was going to come home to see that shes not there because she ran away, having to help her clean up blood because God told her to cut herself, my 13th birthday she ran away and my party got cancelled. Moments i remember just like they were yesterday. I could go on for many pages of the pain i felt and went through. Most of the world would say oh I have been through much worse than this. Well I am sorry for everything that you have been through, however this is what i went through and still live with the thoughts of everything that happened on a daily basis.
    I just want to let go of it all and be done with it. PLease don't get me wrong I love my mother and everything that she has done for me! They say everything happens for a reason and if i didn't have to go through that i wouldn't be the person that I am today rather it be good or bad I am who am and thats all I can be.